July 26, 2010

To whom it may concern...

To Whom it may concern;

I have been lucky to have never been without work whenever I looked for it. The last time I went to western Canada to find seasonal work at a fair wage, though, I vowed that I would make my living in Nova Scotia from now on. In part because I think it is unfortunate to reinforce the belief that Eastern Canadians have to leave their homes to make decent money, but also because I love and know this place the most because it is my home. The only difference in my job search this time was that I refused to work at something I didn’t love, that didn’t make me a better person, didn’t challenge me and did not help the greater good. I wanted to work in a way that was beneficial to the community and helped foster all those things I love about the future of the place where I am from. I wanted to work in Nova Scotia in a field which developed the skills I needed to succeed, was innovative, payed me enough to live and was aligned closely to my principals and values. I was not surprised to find that there was plenty of work in the field of Community Development, but there was very little money.

Over the past few years, I have found my passions in life. I used to feel somewhat lathargic and unmotivated about my life plans and practices, but now I find my work animates and inspires me at every turn so that I have seemingly limitless energy. After going both University & College, working in various fields while volunteering as much as was physically possible, I became quite adamant about community-based and service learning. I had found the missing piece to my own education: putting what you learn into practice. I started to develop leadership programs with the Halifax Regional School Board, Centre for Entrepreneurship Education & Development, Dalhousie and others to help enrich our education systems to be more empowering to youth, to help kids and young adults get hands on experience and create rewards systems for their work in community development. This work was amazingly satisfying, because it redressed social issues from being what seemed to make life difficult into a perfect chance to develop personal skills,  cultivate meaning, take action and be proud of ones work. I developed a special interest in the role of business and entrepreneurial skills as a tool to help people manage and plan how to apply their passions while remedying some of the challenges in society. While teaching one of my sessions, on a fully volunteer basis, I realized that I was not practicing what I had set out to teach: I was teaching youth to live their dreams and address community issues with entrepreneurial know-how, and yet I was volunteering and trying to find ways to supplement my volunteer income through less meaningful work that did not suit my abilities or who I wanted to grow into. So, after some hefty community research, I set off on an entrepreneurial path.

I applied for Self Employment Benefits program through Employment Insurance, participated as a competitor in an Enterprise Atlantic contest and learned as much as I could about how the realm of business and the spirit of enterprise is beneficial to Nova Scotia and to me. I was told that my business ideas and models were amazing, innovative and well thought out. I was told my community projects were needed in our communities, but I needed to be more concerned with profit and creating capitol and that I did not quite fit into the current model of business or many support programs.

I am quite blessed to be someone who has multiple interests and aptitudes, but there is nothing I love so much as my home, its communities and people. I want to live and work here, and think that we can embody a truly innovative and sustainable model with our economy and our people. Over time, I have come to feel like we need to make more room for an economy that thrives on community development and alternative education, and I want to help create jobs outside of charitable organizations and social welfare instituions so that those who are ethical and community-centred can generate an income without depleting government funds or operating wholly separate from business.  We deserve to use the wealth of human potential we have in our amazingly educated capitol, and use these in tandem with entrepreneurials skills so that we might use them most effectively.

I believe that social enterprise and education is part of the future legacy of Nova Scotian identity, and I think that generating awareness and living by example is what I should do with my life. I want to develop the skills, the research, the connections and the knowledge to be business savvy and a community resource simultaneously, and I want to help other Nova Scotians do the same. I would take every chance to embody the ethically, sustainably employed vision I have for this province and try to better myself and the greater community at every turn and I will not be giving up anytime soon.

Can you help me create my job and my Nova Scotia?


Thanks for your time,

Julia M. Feltham

June 3, 2010

Do real leaders believe in themselves?

The trouble with the world is that the stupid are cocksure and the intelligent are full of doubt- Betrand Russell

Bertrand Russell
I by no means hate the fellow, I simply feel he does not operate from a loving, accessible place I can identify with.I cannot wholly fathom Stephen Harper's motivations
 
Albert Einstein
"Unthinking respect for authority is the greatest enemy of truth."
- Albert Einstein







But I perpetually have the thought that people just resolve to care little because fundamentalists care so much. I mean, we don't have a perfect solution--and neither do they-- but they just care so dang much. "I'll give 'em a freebe, I suppose."
So I got to thinking: Is confidence and pushiness the key to Leadership?? Really?
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(to clarify, I don't think Stephen Harper is stupid. I, infact, think he is smart enough to take advantage of the apathy of a privileged nation on the edge of innovation too lazy to digest, take responsibility and take action in a complicated context. I think that we elected him twice: is stupid.)
Stephen Harper pretends to give us what never was and never will be:

"If a nation expects to be ignorant and free in a state of civilization, it expects what never was and never will be." --Thomas Jefferson to Charles Yancey, 1816. ME 14:384


Jefferson portrait by Charles Willson Peale
("Convinced that the people are the only safe depositories of their own liberty, and that they are not safe unless enlightened to a certain degree, I have looked on our present state of liberty as a short-lived possession unless the mass of the people could be informed to a certain degree." --Thomas Jefferson to Littleton Waller Tazewell, 1805.)


Nietzsche
"He who fights with monsters might take care lest he thereby become a monster. And if you gaze for long into an abyss, the abyss gazes also into you."
 Nietzsche

The more kids I work with I realize the connotation of "leaders" and why kids frown upon keeners. Power breeds hypocrisy & lack of self-reflection in conjunction with the harsh judgement of others. Kids do not like the people who are invested in telling them what to do and seem so sure of themselves and wholly unwilling to really listen or accept criticism... but at the same time they don't want to be associated with those types of people, those 'leaders' or deal with the responsibility of power. Therefore they don't want contest these people: to offer up or lobby for any alternative solutions in part because they value the opinions of others and assume someone else can do it better. Plus, what is the worst that could happen? What could be the possible consequences of this laziness? If I have been thinking this, surely someone else has too...
Is this the downfall of democracy? People silently believing the same thing and being spectators to authority?Being a leader, and having to perpetually negotiate your own image...having people who don't even know you being unloving critics and uncritical lovers.
It misplaces those community moral checks we are used to, puts us in a place most find uncomfortable.
Not many covet the position of Prime Minister or President, really. But do we think they are champions of all? Do we think they have all the answers? We act like we believe they have more agency, a more important voice than 'us': The majority, the democracy, the whole.

"At bottom, every man knows perfectly well that he is a unique being, only once on this earth; and by no extraordinary chance will such a marvelously picturesque piece of diversity in unity as he is, ever be put together a second time."


- Nietzsche
We are afraid of our own dreams. Of being held accountable for the world which we dreamed up--as if not following through on your dreams and passions made your influence on the planet inert.


Edgar Allan Poe


"Those who dream by day are cognizant of many things which escape those who dream only by night."
- Edgar Allan Poe


I think this is all great news.... the new leaders (it seems) are the most reluctant to lead. I find that comforting: a good sign of integrity, even. And knowing this, I feel I can still believe in the visions I hold for Canada and her people.


"The things we admire in men, kindness and generosity, openness, honesty, understanding and feeling are the concomitants of failure in our system. And those traits we detest, sharpness, greed, acquisitiveness, meanness, egotism and self-interest are the traits of success. And while men admire the quality of the first they love the produce of the second."-John Stienbeck

Dreamers and artists and teachers will soon hold their new place in a deeper democracy. Where (hopefully) leaders are role models too.


John Steinbeck
"I have come to believe that a great teacher is a great artist and that there are as few as there are any other great artists. Teaching might even be the greatest of the arts since the medium is the human mind and spirit."
- John Steinbeck




Be the change you want to see in the world. -Gandhi



Feeling a little unsure? Not sure you have the right answer?
You are probably on the right track.
Charles Darwin
"Ignorance more frequently begets confidence than does knowledge."
- Charles Darwin