Rant Style

How does Julia feel?
Sometimes I don't know.
It takes me a long while to feel.
especially if something is a lil' awkward or unknown
or I am gauging other people's feelings over my own.








ENTP-style
"In the ENTP, the lack of a well developed Feeling Function means that they must learn to “understand” feeling in both themselves and others and come to terms with its affects. This understanding can only come from thinking carefully about the ways feeling affects not only themselves, but others, and the importance others place on this function. The ENTP has a feeling function more or less global in character and one which does not judge fine differences. This inability to discriminate feelings can allow the ENTP to say and do much that leaves others in the cold, so an effort to think about the feeling process can be essential. "

(Well, Julia feels as such:) 
That is the essence of a good ol' fashioned Julia rant.
This is how I figure out my non-linear "ohshitIactuallyhavefeelings" feelings.
This is an old tradition of mine.
Especially I used to send these to my muses: Shean Higgins, Andrew Bateman etc.
Here is a brief disclaimer: Unlike hand-written letters, I don't expect people to read these rants. These are mostly journals when I am not certain how I feel. They do not ever involve a backspace and are a means of me holding my own thoughts transparent and accountable in thataway. By allowing them to flow. Julia rants are a time when I let myself pretend there is no time line or a need to draw connections or continium
I do not hold myself accountable in them, and not everything has hefty merit
but this does not mean it is meaningless

This journal is rant-central.

But my body is not a cage
and nor is language.
It won't keep me.