Couples

A friend said to me today
You must be pretty intimidating to boys because you are so full
and
It must take a particular skill set to be with you
hmmm...
I wonder if anyone is up for the challenge?
Or if it is even true?
Or if I even want to be paired?
Or if I can avoid being afraid to love or to be attatched to someone. My most pronounced cowardice.
When I care about someone my guts tell me similutaneously to run away and to stay forever
And also... I rarely rarely care about someone's like that. So it is uncomfortable.
Though, I seek discomfort, because it indicates I'm learning.
What are my guts saying?
What am I learning?






 
Perhaps I will just follow my guts: